Day 73

My starting over didn't go too well. As you can tell, I've not been posting, which will tell you that I've not been working out (other than light housework and chasing Hannah around), and I've really not been eating any less than before.

I know, I know... Wasn't the whole point of this blog to be positive about my weight loss goals and progress? And what's it turning into now... It feels more like it's my excuse blog for not doing anything.

However, no excuses will be found here.

The answer to my lack of weight loss is simple: I'm not doing anything about it.

Why not, you may ask me, as I ask myself every week...

Well, honestly, I seem to have no motivation to lose. I tried the idea of pulling out an old dress and making it a point to be able to wear it again within the next year, or at least pulling out my old jeans instead of buying new ones. Instead I seemed to have settled to complain about the lack of clothes I own that actaully fit me. I still cannot seem to bring myself to get rid of things that don't fit anymore, though. That's a good thing, right? I don't buy new things that do fit, I just deal with what I have and I have a closet full of reminders of what size I used to be...

I just need to make it happen again! Gaining 35lbs in the course of a year and a half (from the time of my wedding to the time I found out that I was pregnant with Hannah) is pathetic in my mind. I'm figuring if I can gain 35lbs in roughly 18 months, I should be able to lose at least the same in about two years! Now that 35lbs is NOT including what I gained and did not lose during my first pregnancy. That would be about another 15lbs, which I would like to try and lose before that year after losing the first 35. That would bring me back to the weight I was at my wedding (roughly) which is not where I'd like to be, but close enough!

The question I have is...

Is there anyone out there willing to do this with me and take on the challenge?

35lbs (or more) in two years.

Think you could do it?

I think that it's possible with the right motivation and accountability.

Anyone else up for it?

I'm challenging you to do this with me. But we have to be on the ball with it and keep each other motivated and accountable throughout the two years...

To this I say:

BRING IT ON!

Day 63

I started over yesterday. I did have soda. I'm even having one today. I've decided that to take everything away from myself all at one time does not do good things for my mentality and I start to feel a bit crazed and down...

I did not weigh myself yesterday at all. I was weighed at the doctors on Thursday and with my jeans, T-shirt and oversized sweatshirt on (I always take off my shoes so I don't have that added weight as well), I weighed in there at 196, which is where I was when I started this whole thing on September 1st.

So, even though I will weigh myself this afternoon when the kids go down for naps, I will do it so I can set my weight loss goal with the Wii Fit software and seeing as it is the middle of the day, I won't hold much stock to it. On the plus side of things, I've been doing pretty good about NOT snacking today! I had a fairly light breakfast, but make sure that my lunch was a bit more filling so that Hannah's bag of Halloween candy won't seem so tempting to me. Guess we'll see how long that lasts...

Hehehe...

So here goes the month of Novmeber, with my crazy notion that I'll actually be able to lose weight during the holidays, and I think I'll be asking for all the luck and prayer in the world that anyone can wish me or give to help me not have to wear old maternity shirts and finally be able to wear the clothes that have been hanging in my closet unworn and the jeans in my drawers going unworn since very, VERY early 2007!